Coffee Shop Contemplations

Last night, during the awesome singing by Jeremy Rutherford, a family came into the coffee shop. Their dress indicated a lower socioeconomic class, and they quickly plopped into a seat to make use of our free WIFI. The husband made a quick trip to the bathroom and the wife was sent to find the price of a smoothie. Just a little over four dollars, the smoothie was beyond their paying capabilities, and she quickly sat down disappointed. My heart started to hurt. As the singer packed up and the family started to gather their things, my heart began beating faster remembering their desire for a smoothie. I quickly rushed over to offer them a free smoothie (don't worry Mr. Kidd I paid for it later). You would have thought I offered them a million dollars. Shocked by the offer, their faces lit up as I made some smoothies. The point of this blog is just now coming. No, do not thank me or say that was kind, it wasn't for you, it was for my Father. After they left, I teared up and sat in the presence of God as I thanked Him for my blessings. Here comes the point: entertaining angels. I'm not suggesting that the family of three had their pearly white wings tucked into their shirts, what I'm suggesting is that we honor who we serve by serving the least of these. As I mentioned to my mom, it may have been a test from God. In fact, I started worshipping Him after the experience because I knew that God was in my midst. How did I know? Because of the least of these. Feel cold in your walk with Christ? Go serve a homeless man or woman. Talk to the lonely. Befriend the friendless. Give clothes to the naked. These acts will immediately place you in the presence of God, it did for me. For a moment, I thought I was going to have a pentecostal breakdown in the coffee shop. Why? Because it confirmed that God is not done with me. Sometimes I feel discouraged because life seems stagnant. Particularly, I feel stagnant. I feel as if the whole world is moving closer or farther from God and then there's me...stuck. Part of my problem is I live my whole life on feelings--note: you will not always feel like serving God, do it anyways. This affects me in so many different ways. I don't feel like eating healthy, so I don't. I don't feel like working out, so I don't. I don't feel like reading my Bible, so I don't. I believe God is trying to wake me up to a place of discipline and logic. Just because I don't feel like doing something doesn't mean I shouldn't do it anyway. Because I live on feelings, my walk with God is easily dictated by my mood, emotions, and circumstances. I don't want to live that way! I think God is trying to walk me through a phase where life might feel a little dry to teach me to praise when I'm tired, to read when I'm exhausted, and to live honorably when I'm weak. Whoops, got on a tangent! Is any of this making sense or resonating? The more I write, the more I'm beginning to think that this blog is for me more than anyone else. One last thing, pray for me. Specifically? Pray I learn to live a life beyond feelings. Not that feelings aren't good! But it produces a very unstable life, and I could use some stability and progression in my walk with Christ. Love you all! Peace & Blessings. Brigitte